The Pain In My Chest-Why I Need Top Surgery

tw/cw: chest talk, dysphoria, mental health, suicidal thoughts When I was younger, I went through puberty as everyone does, but it definitely came with its challenges of conflicting feelings. I think there's a big difference between dysphoria and disconnect in a trans person's life. When I was younger, I had no distress about my gender... Continue Reading →

Suddenly, I Can’t Breathe

CW: Borderline Personality disorder, Mental Episode, Panic attack, Mental health, Graphic Description. . . . . . . . For Mental Health Awareness Month I wanted to write out what it feels like when I have a Borderline Personality episode. .. .. .. .. .. My heart is beating out of my chest. My head... Continue Reading →

As unbelievably cringy as this title sounds, it's a valid question. What are your dreams made of? Your ambitions, your drive. I ask myself this a lot and always wonder whether I am on the right path. In this time of strenuous politics and economy, I wonder if I can live a fulfilling life without... Continue Reading →

I started my new job! It's a great one and I'm proud of myself for getting it. Although I have some...personal worries. My first three days I've had tension/heat/dehydration migraines. They make me stressed, on top of the pressure that I put on myself for no reason now that I'm a "lead", and that pressure... Continue Reading →

Pros and Cons Around Top Surgery/Testosterone

***Small content warning: Body Anatomy/Surgery talk*** When it comes to transition, thoughts can coincide and decisions can become clouded between wants and needs. To work through these thoughts I've made Pro and Con lists for both Top Surgery and going on Testosterone. These lists are not 'proof' that I will choose or not choose to... Continue Reading →

FT(N) Top Surgery

************Content warning! Body, Chest, Medical Surgery, Terminology, and description ******************** What is it and Why? So, there is a clear content warning on this post because it can be hard to talk about our bodies. Especially getting a surgery that I will get because it will make me feel more comfortable in my skin. What... Continue Reading →

Summer Blues

I've had a rough week. At my most recent job, while I was able to start using my new name, around the same time, my hours had been cut. From 35-40 hours, down to a mere 15-20 hours. I was devastated. I was crying in the bathroom stall after I confronted my manager about it... Continue Reading →

I am Done!

BEHOLD, I am done with this school year. The first year towards my new transfer degree in English done and done. It was tough. I went through a lot of mental rough patches. Coming out as Non-binary was the biggest one. However, I had good patches too. I got engaged at Christmas, got acquainted with... Continue Reading →

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